we went out on Monday to vivo to watch zodiac!
d movie to me was just mediocre. mayb cos it's not my kind of show.maybe it's cos i didnt understand d show cos we missed d 1st 30-40 minutes of the show.nex 20 mins or so feeling evh angry.d rest of the show being veh restless and starved.hahaha.
tt day was quite screwed to start with.in d office.so i left the office late.we suppose 2 mit at 1815 at d mrt but i took train from chinatown at 1820-_-
and i tot i was really late already.so i told him i wld b late la.he said he's gonna b late too so ask me wait 4 him at the cinema.so wen i reached habourfront mrt, i tot like jus wait 4 him dere if he's near.so i called him and ask if he's near and i cld wait 4 him at d mrt if he's.den he said didnt i ask u 2 wiat at d cinema?i said ya, but since if u r near den i wait 4 u here la.den i asked where's he.HE WAS STILL AT HOME LEH.-_-and if u r following closely, u shud b able to figure out that the show can b starting at any mintue.den i siad but the show is at 1830 leh.n i said it nicely ok.den he SHOUTED back.TTS Y I TAKING CAB NOW RIGHT.
how i noe u taking cab or rocket or wad!n u were so late n u had d cheek 2 yell at me like tt.-_-
so i OBEDIENTLY waited 4 him at d cinema.i already flet like crying for being shouted at.i mean like.hello!wads wrong wid u man!
so when he finally came, he grabbed my arm n said sorry.n i jus walked away to d theatre.tmd.den wen we were finally seated down, i cld sense he he kept looking at me.and for d 1st 15 mins or so we met, i didnt even wan 2 look a him -_-
den he pulled me over n said sorry for being late or sth.hello.i m nt angry wid u for being late leh.so i said.it's cos u shouted at me n tts nt d 1st time-_-
hello!aiyo!diff frequencies leh.
but after tt okie la.hmm.
den after movie we went hog's breath.den i asked abt winnie n d friendster ting.hahah.she went thru his history 2 c my friendster.omg.such effort put in for me.=)
den we talked talked at d seaside/river side outside vivo.n i realised he cnt f rmb my bd.n i said.i cnt believe u r my ex-_-
and saying he's my ex sounds veh weird.i dun like.
den we went to my place poolside.then winnie called.after what seems like 10 yrs, he put down d phone.
and i asked.so ya still veh loving right?
hb: normal lo
zh: u still love her don't you?
hb:ya..i love her..
zh:so u r veh happy wid her right?
hb: most of the time, ya.i'm trying hard to make things work.
zh: =)/=(
den we talk talk talk.i 4gt wad we were saying, i started crying.saying how diff tings are already.how i wan 2 b happy for him but it can b so difficult.
den he said i shud start dating again.go out n meet ppl n 4gt him.n i said.how can i when i cnt even let go of him?and he said i must show him my boyfriend nex time..say he'll b at my wedding (hello.i am only 19-_-)..say he shudnt have came into my life..saying he'll always be there for me..
well.i thank God for him.for knowing him, i've learnt n matured.and knowing that he's always dere for me is very assuring, comforting and n i m super grateful for that.
we hugged and i kissed him.he kissed me on my cheeks n forehead.i wanted to jus die in his arms.at least i would have died lovingly=)
take care my baby.pls rmb u've let me to b there for you=)
cos i want and have always been.
