was bathing jus nw.n suddenly tis tot came 2 my mind.
i m gonna "fool" ard like how boys do it to d girls.

i dunno y d tot came.but it's kinda like a revenge to al those bastards.

how easily those ppl let the phrase "i like you" etc out of their pathetic mouths (or let their lame thumb type it and send it thru their phones).widout much consideration of hw d girl wil feel.wad if it sparks tt PUNNY feelin in tt girl?n worse!wad if d girl oredi is already interested in tt guy?

d former eg is tis guy cal reeve.oso from zouk.hahah.so isae zouk is a nice place.anw!ytd he suddenly sms me.told me he broke up wid his gf.sidetrack a while.after tt dae at zouk,he sms me sae he likes me.wtf.n ytd tel me he broke up wid his gf.tt means dey were stil tog wen he told me tt la!knn.so.he was askin me go devil's bar wid him.tink he gt quite drunk.sae he misses me.wa lau.i stil d sms.
"why r u nt e one who like me!why muz suffer tis type of shit! Haiz... feel liek hugging someone nw hope is u nw"
"Since she can leave me like tat le! Why can't i 4get ger cos she betray me! Can i like u?"
"i wish to care u more, can?"
"i luv u"
"ok.....ohs! 4get to greet u gd mornin. i really miss u alot."
"tml is my friend's wedding. i wish u can be my partner."
wtf.tis all happened within sat's nite n sun afternoon.n i dun even noe him la!siao 1 leh!n 1 of d sms he sae.u r so wild.how 2 propose 2 u 2 b my gf!?wtf!siao arh!u jus f broke up wid ur gf den u wan a stranger 2 b ur gf!hello!but mayb i wil jus play along. =X =DD

n ryan.wtf.kns.angry sia.all those cock he said.n he is nw farkin dun care.best lo tis kind.n 2 tink i was so desperate 2 ask if he wan watch movie tog.oh ya!i asked him if he was avoidin me or sth.den he said no la.i tink 2 much.N HE SAID...it's always good to hav many friends mah"like wtf.so u tel ur all ur frens u miss dem so much.cal dem by such endearments.havin tt kinda physical intimacy.knn.angry lo.but if he sms me i tink i wil fall back la.HAHAH.

but!i m gonna b a playgirl!i hope i can last!=D stupid assholes.guys.one by one.
okie.or mayb it is d place la.jan reminded me abt ppl i mit dere.den i tink i like veh nt scared die lidat.i noe dere's a hole but i m stil walking tt wae though i've fallen into it b4.i m so clever man.

but nvm!i m jus gonna enjoy it man!zhihua jiayou!=D

ryan (s)

ryan.tis guy i met at zouk (again).hugged.kissed.touched.in short la. n in d end is i left him my number.he nv ask leh!kns.we were veh intimate la.my extremest yet.=D

n i jus met him4 dinner jus.he ate.i didnt.it was either i m jus nt hungry or jus 2 excited.hahaha.anw.NTH happened.which is quite unexpected considering wad happened tt nite.maybe he's shy.which i hope so or else wad!

he is quite chatty.which is gd or else i cnt imagine d awkwardness.tt wil b veh killing i guess.he seems 2 b quite confident of himself.gd results.play sports well.wa lau. -_-

oh ya.he smells gd 2.n looks nt bad.at least i tink so.=D

he had 2 leave quite hurrily.he wanted 2 send me home but it was 10pm.he was meetin his frens at 1030 at Holland V while we were stil at j8 at tt time. =S

i tink i like him la.fark.

den wad abt ryan?!as in my cambodian i-ownself-proclaimed-boyfren
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results!=D

NAME : ANG ZHI HUA
STUDENT NO. : 10022067A
COURSE : CHINESE STUDIES
NRIC/FIN : S8802944E
CURRENT SEMESTER CREDIT UNITS OBTAINED : 24.0000
DATE OF EXAM : AUG 2006
CURRENT SEMESTER GRADE POINT AVERAGE : 3.4167
SEMESTER OF STUDY : 03
MODULE
CREDITUNIT
GRADE
ATTEMPT
REMARKS
CONTEMPORARY CHINESE LANGUAGE
4.00
B
1

FUNDAMENTALS OF INTERPRETATION
4.00
A
1

GLOBAL ISSUES : SINGAPORE PERSPECTIVES
4.00
B
1

PRESENTATION SKILLS IN CHINESE
4.00
B
1

PRINCIPLES OF MARKETING COMMUNICATION
4.00
A
1

VIDEO PRODUCTION
4.00
B+
1

RESULT : Passed


sibei happy.at least better than last time n nw my GPA gt d number 3 before the decimal point ok!

desperate

hello hello hello

i m so bored i m dying.=D

i tink i need a boyfren.now!for the exclusive campanionship.i gt many gd frens of cos.but i cnt expect dem 2 kip me accompanied ALL the time rite. n frens n a boyfren r veh diff rite.d tings u share wid tis 2 types of ppl.imgaine tellin ur frens "i love u dear.i wan 2 spend my life wid u".if my frens sae tt 2 me.i wil f d person upside.4 being so OMG!hahaha

but of cos.i dun expect myself 2 spend my ENTIRE life wid 1 single boyfren.i wil jus die i tink.but i can see myself hangin out n stil being bes of frens wid my current frens.i even imagine myself renting a hse wid tan n ong!so fun sia.=D

back 2 topic.boyfren.i m some1 hu nids loadsa attention n assurance.i nid ppl 2 tel me hw great i am 2 make myself feel gd.i noe tt sounds veh wtf.but it is in everyone n i jus happen 2 b more in need of tt can!

n i like d feelin of ppl fussing over n worryin abt me.hahhaha.i noe tis is veh selfish.but it is a gd feeelin rite.feelin of being loved n taken care of.but of cos i (tink) wil do it 4 him 2.=D

n the physical pleasure we can gif each other.face it la.we al nid tt part in a relationship.no use acting like a saint rite.it brings a relationship further n deeper ok.n tt does nt necessarily means sex ok!bastards.

n i expect zero dishonesty from him.i m finding myself possesing lesser n lesser tolerance 2 lies.ok,mayb white lies r stil acceptable.but f intentional lies.dey r d most disgustin tings on tis polluted earth.

many tings la.i cnt tink of anymore.so gt me a boyfren.now.

long time no blog.hahah.actuali i noticed myself bloggin onli wen sth major/significnat/irritatingly interesting happens.=D

anw.here i am goin 2 blog abt clarence.2 remind myself not to be so dumb in d future.

we met at zouk las las wed.at d dance floor.u noe d usual.talk.dance.exchange numbers.

he was nice.jinny was quite sloshed tt dae n myself feelin quite tipsy.n he stayed to "help" though i tot there's no obligations 2 help any1 u mit in such places.so i tot he was quite nice la.den after tt we sat outside zouk.he was stil there though it is quite late/early (3 plus to 5). hmmm.we were quite intimate.holding hands.i was lying on his shoulders.he was holding me.we talked.n i began 2 tink he was even nicer.den after sending jinny home,we went 2 prata hse.dere,he asked if he cld come 2 my hse cos he didnt wan 2 go home yet.of cos i didnt sae yes. 1)wad if he rapes me?!erm.. 2)wad if my bro sees?!
den wen we were crossin d road, he suddenly held my hand n even wen we crossed d road,he didnt let go.in fact he didnt let go til he boarded d cab.i cld feel my face blush sia=D

we were stil in contact after tt dae.he even told me he likes me online on d followin sat.oh ya.he asked if i cld go his hse.n even offered 2 pay my cab fare 2 his hse.imgaine if i had went.frankly i was quite tempted 2 go.but heng nv la!

den suddenly we lost contact.actuali is he stop replyin me on sms n msn.jus lidat.widout any apparent reason.i was quite affected.i mean.after al d tings he said n done, tis is d kinda ting he is showing.no link sia.dawn dey al said it was cos i cld nt gif him wad he wants.which is sex of course.but come 2 tink of it,he didnt reali take advantage of me tt dae after zouk.which can b a gd chance 4 him u noe.

nvm.it is nw al behind me.tts nth much i can do now though i wil stil like 2 noe y d sudden change in him.

so nex time, keep to the commandment.what happens there ends there.

continue havin fun my dear zhihua.