tan did up another blog at Live Journal.so blogspot quite neglected.hehe.

but i guess i will still come back to this blog once in a while.after all, many memories, good or bad, are still here and they still play a big part of my life.yes, till now.

hmm.friday after zouk, he came back to my place.and we did things that he shouldn't, considering he's with winnie.but we didnt have sex, though i wanted to and we almost did.and he did what he did cos he was obliging me.though he said i am still very attractive n things lidat, he wouldn't want to have sex with me wholeheartedly cos he's attached.and i know he really loves her.though i dunno how, since he loved me so much and he said she was just a responsibility and it was the most difficult decision for him to leave me.and i know he feels bad for doing what we did.and i feel bad too, cos he did all those things jus cos i asked.u've moved on far, leaving me standing in the rain, drenched and frozen in the heart.

i am sorry,my baby.i am sorry.i wasn't sober and wasn't in d right state of mind.put the blame on me.it will make u feel better.

maybe we shouldn't meet for a while.to let the things we don't want to remember fade to the dark corner in the background.maybe things can be good again after this cold turkey period.

i am sorry for still loving you.this is my worst persistence.