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went clubbin.haha.again.
n tis time onli dawn n me.the fun combination =D
n thursday is the d day to go man.dunno y butit seems that he crowd on thurs r more fun.less xdd n xmm 2.

b4 long, we were dancin wid tis 2 guys.ehh.deckie n YEZHONG.omg.yezhong is d hot 1.more abt him later.
okie.started like dancin wid deckie.wa lau.zhihua.u r such a slut.ya were like touchin rubbing holding huggin each other.n those tings he told u.omg.ji shy yi xia.=Dbut guiltily,ryan came 2 zhihua's mind wen she was in his arms.wtf sia.frankly,zhihua wasnt payin much attention eventually n started 2look ard.at yezhong =DD
den we went 2 gt a drink.on deckie.tot zhihua n dawn wil juz die from d drug in it.too much drama.haha.start 2 chat up a bit wid yezhong.omg.so cute.22.juz end NS n goin smu in july or aug arh.cnt rmb la.he blardie cute la!!n his piercing at d chin dere or lower lips..dunno hw 2 sae la..F HOT CAN!wa lau...!n he took chi lit 4 Os b4.wth.okie..ttz out of point.wa lau!!i so wan 2 lick his piercing can!=DD
den after tt i danced wid him!omg!ji high yi xia!his so cute.n his dance 2!wa lau!but he like shy shy de.dun reali like gt touchy-ness.which i dun like esp wid such a cute guy!=DD zhihua.slut.i m so high over him nw!i wan 2 lick his piercing!=DDD
den dey left.sad.but numbers got!=D
i wan 2 happenin wid him!
n i tink deckie muz b tinkin i m such a slut.like after him den his fren!=D
n tt dawn cher si er went missing 4 like so long!!basket.hahaha.i muz mrb her number from nw on.
den we were watchin soccer.japan n brazil.n i support japan coz dey r from asia!=D
den gt tis ugly n fat guy (eventually we noe he is aaron).kip kp sae brazil wid win.wen he f noe we r on japan's side.f.juz shut up can!nobody asked u!den his fren came.edwin.at least nt as irritatin den tt aaron la!omg!n he even gave us a ride home la.as in.share cab.wth.song=D

3 numbers.1 drink.1 cab ride.zhihua.slut.=D

i so wan 2 happenin wid yezong again!
oh ya.did i mention he looks liek zhide =D

i noe i seem 2 b very 淫荡.but to me.i m juz havin fun.u noe tis kinda place..no strings attached.no real feelins involved.if u wan 2 play,den juz haf fun lo.but sure 2 noe ur limits.n everybody has diff standard of limits-ness.=)
i m njoyin life now.=D

long time no come

yoo
hahaha..lame

did i mention abt tis guy cal kevin in any other entries?anw.he is such a freak can.gt 2 noe him coz of some survey i did.some blardie saving plans 1 la.at j8 on my way home.den he gt my email n hp from d form.den we started chattin online.he siao 1 la.there n then,he oreid asked if he cld date me out.wth u expect 2 sae except yes..omg.totally regretful now.den he called me tt nite.wa lau.ppl slpy d voice lidat can.he said sth like..gers wid voice like urs can be categorised into 3 types.cute..sexy..horny..omg!can u believe it he said sth lidat durin our 1st fone cal.omg.den he started askin me if i wear bra 2 slp..my bra size..wad kinda PJ i wear..if i watch porn..shud wear lacy PJs..all durin d 1st or 2nd fone calls.wa lau eh.okie la.normal la.but durin d 1st or 2nd calls leh!n he is nt my f bf lo.
den he said he likes me.haha.nice 1 lo.u dun even noe me can.den sae like wad i tink of him.asked if i njoyed d attention he gifs me.adreline rush.tings lidat la.wth.oh ya.he calls me babe..pretty..dear..hello!i m nt those 2 u k!
n he is like askin me olut online weneva i c him dere.n i wil juz ignore tt question la.n he like f dun gt it lidat!omg!pls.irritatin leh.

okie.i cldnt care less abt him le la.but honestly,i stil tot he is quite a nice guy.until i found him superly irritating.next.

den qj's fren mingyang.okie.he is more recent la.anw,we r goin movie tog wid his fren n dawn tmr.haha.
he is quite a nice guy la.funny n interestin 2 tok 2.
n he told me he likes me.omg.we onli knew each other 4 less than a wk.i tink.ya.he might heard a lot abt me from qj.but knowin sum1 herself n knowin her thru sum1 else is diff k!i jzu told him we barely noe each n he saes he tink so too but cldnt help it or sth lidat la.but wen he told me he likes me,i wasnt exactly suprised coz i tink a guy wunt bother himself wid a ger(read:sms..being nice..bother tokin 2 u..)unless he is interested in her.oh ya.he actuali wanted 2 tel mi in my face wen we were supposedly b out on a wed.i cnt imagine if he told me in my face.i wil die la.anw.i noe i m being veh bad.like al tis flirting n stuff can easily mislead him 2 tink i m oso interested.i m nt.okie.mayb nt yet.but at tis moment no la.mayb i m juz enjoyin al d attention he gives me.i m such an attention seeker n i like ppl being concerned abt me.ttz y.but after he told me he likes me,i started feelin bad sms-in him.coz like i m leadin him further 2 tink i m interested while i m nt.n wen huiling asked if i like him,i sorta steadily sae i dun.omg.ttz bad.
n tmr.if he is gonna hold my hand,which i dun tink he will la.but juz in case he does,i seriously dunno wad 2 do.guys r such bastards.dey noe tt gers wunt noe wad 2 do.we can possibly juz let go.ttz sorta rude yea?so even if we r nt comfortable wid tt,we juz hafta bear wid it n den d guys wil tink"oh.she muz b interested/njoying/happy.so i m gonna continue 2 take step further".pls.ttz so 1 sided.so wad am i gonna do IF he holds my hand?i noe i m being a slut again.but i njoy human touch(literally)a lot.so i dunno if i shud juz let him b or wad sia.juz hope he wunt la huh.

n ryan.omg.his letter.finally gt it la!!=D
n i was super happy k.wid d teddy bear pouch!ahh!
till huiqi told me d letter was prolly written by roth chearn.as in.ryan cld haf said it n RC put it to d letter form.though i m quite sad, if it is at least SAID by ryan,it is okie!=
in d letter,he told me tings like he cnt gt 2 slp coz he tinks of me..he loves me..wants 2 c me again..misses me..will rmb me..waiting 4 me..givin his heart 2 me alone..omg.how touched was i.seriously.den i started feelin bad.again.coz if he is serious n truthful,i m so dead.here i am..flirting wid other guys..n if he is dere seriously lovin me,i m such a whore.

yes.i loved him n i stil like him.but the feelin had obviously faded.i m some1 hu nids loadsa assurance n love from a guy.n i tink physical contact is a must in a relationship.dun act holy ok.so tis obviously i cnt gt from him.hw am i suppose 2 maintan my feelins 4 him?but on the other hand,wad if he multiplied tis letter 2 sum1 else?if tt happened,i dunno hw i shud feel.1st,i tink i wil darn hurt la.he wunt hafta sae al tis 2 me if he doest mean it k.but i wil quite relieved 2.at least he is nt serious n wunt gt hurt coz i dun tink we ever can b tog.though i wish we cld.hai.

if onli he is a blardie singaporean or at least sum1 hu is more accesible.u noe wad i mean.