met up wid tan jus nw.can st sae hw dearly she stil holds on to jh.
hai.wtf.i noe it is nt ez.but i guess she reali has to walk out of it.soon.it is like eatin her up.it hurts 2 c her lidat.f.nth much we can do though.i mean.i nv reali noe wads it like 2 b in such a f up situation.i hope me being dere helps.a bit at least i pray.but wad jiaming told her is f wae 2 harsh.though i mus admit some of d tings he said i gotta agree.but certainly nt d wae he expressed dem.totally tactless n hurtin.
talkin abt him.he jus nw sms me sae wan mit up after his clubbin trip.n it is either he is bz f some gers nw or he jus totally 4gt abt it.he told me he is havin some family stuff(movin out..his uncle..)n he is feelin quite stressed up n moody over al tis.i mean.i stil see him as a fren.n i dunno y i feel quite sad seein him lidat.if he nids sum1 2 listen,i dun mind.but d line is drawn dere.n he started crappin sae..sweet.i m startin to love u bit by bit.
if he said tt wen we were stil quite hot,i tink i wil b so f happy i wil die.but now,to me,it is al a f joke i tink he shud stop immediately.if he tink it is fun doin/.sayin al tis,he shud reali start fan xing yi xia.even if he is serious,dere's oredi near-zero trust btwn us.so of cos,d possibilty of him jus tokin cock is sky high compared 2 him havin d possibilty 2 b geniune.but i do hope everytin wil turn out fine 4 him.=)
hmm.it's 3 plus oredi.
oh ya.ziheng is a total martha farker la.we were on d fone las nite.4 abt 2 hrs.n d 1st 1hr plus he jus kept rattlin abt his ns stuff.which i obviously haf no slightest interest in.n i was givin half hearted hmm.ya..oh.. answers wen he was tellin me tt.but he didn seem 2 care n i absoluetly gt no chance 2 speak.den he kept askin me 2 hold on.for every hold on it is abt 5 to 10 mintues la.mf.wait until veh ll 1 leh.den dunno hw come(i was mf slpy n bored oredi ok)we toked abt clubbin.wa lau.tis is d hot part sia.cb.he asked wad i do wen i club.drink n dance of cos.den he said if his mum noes abt me goin clubbin,she wld "raise eyebrows" n wld rather "stay clean" from such matters.den sae in his entire life he haven drink more tham 500ml of alcohol(nth 2 b proud of ass).i cnt rmb wad exactly he said.but he used words like "indecent" or "not decent" la.wtf.clubbin is nth sth dirty or indecent.farker.if u dun club.it is ur own f biz la.dun try forcin tt idea on me.i dun f gif a shit abt wad ur mum tinks of me clubbin.if tt matters 2 u,go continue b d martha f mummy boy u are.it no longer concern me.i hate it man.bicth.den we started tokin abt US.i cnt reali rmb wad he said la.den i said i dunno anitin abt it.as in.from d past few daes,d ting he did or rather didnt do,reali shows everytin itself.he doesnt seem 2 care anymore n i dun seem 2 b bothered by tt anymore.even if i am,it is jus tt i m f bu gan yuan.anw.he tried 2 make everytin sound like it is my f fault la.so if everytin dun work,it is my f problem n i shud hold responsibility abt it all.i am wad am i 2 u cos of u urself ok slut.so stop sayin tt i shud noe wad it is like n decide sth for us.f off man.i cldnt care less abt al tis shit now
FARK!I HATE MEN.now.for now.jus for now.when i manage 2 find a (seemingly) better man,my passion wil reignite itself=)come.faster.
i nid 2 club
1)2 dance n lose some f weight.
2)2 celebrate my hectic schedule in skl.haf a break.haf a club break=)
3)2 release some energy.if u noe wad i mean.hehe.
4)nt so importantly,to wear my dresses b4 my mum start naggin sae i kip buyin but no wear.
5)i jus miss the smell.music.sight.squeezy-ness.everytin gd=)
6)the shiok-ness from flaming larmbo(hw d f u spell tt vehicle?)
7)i jus nid an excuse 2 b mad n 4gt everytin else.at least 4 a while.
CLUB!
