jiaming n i met up.las nite/in d morning.we sat by d pool.he started tellin me he loves me.he is sorry for hurting me in d past.he asked for a 2nd chance.he promised tings wil b better.i told him.i dunno hw much i can trust him n hw much i can commit into it nw.i mean.i wan 2 trust him but apparently dere's nth i can build d trust on.n so many f up tings happened.all the tings he said n al d rubbish he did.i cnt deny i like him.but if i m goin 2 go thru al d shit i did,i rather it end here.save al d trouble for me.for him.i hope he is sincere n geninue tis time round though.but even if he is,i noe tings wil nv b d same again.n if i ever go wid him,jan ong n everybody else wil jus f me upside down.i dun wan 2 let him affect me n my frens.n i m so sure dey wil gt angry/tink i m out of my mind/both/everytin if i ever go wid him.
n i somehow feel bad twds jiaming.i dunno y.if he is 4 real now,n i dun gif a f,isnt tt f bastard of me?like he said,every1 deserves a 2nd chance.but i dunno if he'll betray his.
ARGH.F ME.i reali dunno how.