This is something not even my closest friend can comprehend, nor the dearest sister can get near to. I am not seeking for sympathy. I just want to understand. Myself, him, the weird relationship we share. I guess this is a journey very much on my own. a lonesome, yet enriching one.
however, i wish i could never have to step on this journey.that would say, i won't have to lose you.a soulful partner, an empowering friend, a part of me i can't seem to lose or forgo.

you might probably regret your decision after years.but that would be just too late.for the both of us.maybe one day we will exchange roles.you being the nostalgic one and i would have moved on to the next phase of my life.or maybe the situation would stay stagnant as long as we are here.

i want to wish you well.but i can't help but to think who can love you better than i do.