hello my dear=)

hope yoy are enjoying in phuket.though i also hope you are not.but most probably you are.though i dont want to think so.

you might be coming back.but not to me.i remembered you told me you will come back to me when you were at her birthday chalet.ha.wad a joke, my sweet.i was just a resting point.probably a temporary escapade from the short term unhappiness you had with her.and you left, without turning back to see how dejected i am.

we havent met for a month plus.and of cos, it doesnt really make much a difference for you, despite knowing i am leaving for china REAL soon.ha.i miss you, but maybe not as bad as before cos i havent seen you for a relatively long time and the way u f treat me like a piece of dirt.maybe if i dont see you at all will be a good thing after all.

but when every good things happen, i wish you were there to share the joy.when bad things happen, i wish you were there to dry my tears and let your shoulder to lie.

but it's okie.since it has got better than before, maybe some day everything will be fine.but for now, i still love you.just that i dunno how.

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough

I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and achin'
And tumblin' and breakin'

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
Well I dream a fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights

I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothing but good friends?

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

The way I wish you would

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get

I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could