omg.i think this is the 1st time i am blogging here since dunno when!=D
must b cos i over-blogged while doing my attachment.so i am sorta over-compensating the overflow of entries now.=D

well.today can be considered a special day.since it wld be the 9th month wid him if we were still together.hw time flies, even when you think it inches away so painfully everyday.

the first 24th since i got here was last month's.tt day was even much more difficult to get by.maybe it is cos it's the first, maybe cos i missed him more then, maybe cos i needed him more then.not to say i am not missing or needing him now.but at least it is not as bad as before, and maybe it is a good thing afterall.

things here are pretty fine.the food still bearable (except for the restaurants here=) ).the people here horrible (i tot i cld grow to like them more when i am here.how wrong am i).school is fine except for the assignments.but isnt skl all abt tt.hahaha.but when i have to suffer from the pangs of missing him, reminiscing abt the past we share, being reminded of him..it all sucks.and it boils down to telling myself how much i havent let go of him (even though like i said,it is gettin better from before) and how much i wish things are still the same (okie, maybe not EXACTLY the same la).SUCKS.

imagine if we are stil tog when i am here.maybe it would be a great source of motivation and strength for me to pull through this period of time (not saying things are v bad here though).something/ someone to look forward to.someone to make me feel i am missed and wanted.someone to hear me talk about anything and need not worry he wld find it insensible.and having the knowledge that someone i need needs me just as much.

but of course.these are only my fantasy.

when he was being abnormally nice while sms-ing me that day, i was weirdly not used to it.isnt it pathetic tt u r nt used to someone being nice to u.=D
and i dunno if it's good to be in contact again.cos it makes me miss him more and get me started on thinking abt things again.despite tt, i stil wan to b in touch wid him, of cos.i miss him and i want to know how are things on his side too.this is getting confusing yea.haha.either way sucks.just like now, i havent heard from him since then and withdrawal symptoms are bad.

i wonder how are the both of them.i don't want to wish them bad, but i selfishly tot tt maybe sth bad might happen.okie, i wan to take tt back.

i dunno what else to say already.maybe when i got the time and the mood, i will be back to tell myself.