great great.
the long awaited photos for THEIR Phuket trip are finally posted on her Friendster=)
though i know how much it will hurt to see them together, i still couldn't resist the temptation to find out.
aha.and well.how my heart wrenched into a pathetic lump when i see the photos.how the rims of my eyes burn when i see the photos.how i wish i never have to feel so miserable about someone i love so much.
and it is the much dreaded 24th of the month again.and maybe seeing these photos on this particularly special day is meant to be.but of course, i don't need these subtle hints to tell me i should have let go long time ago.his indifference and ability to move on so quickly are the best ways he can use to tell me to get a life of my own without him.but how?how could i possibly leave when i gave so much and is still so committed in this expired relationship?when i still care and love you so much, how can i turn around and pretend nothing between us have moved me?
my friends are expecting us to meet up before our leaving to China.and of course i miss you so much i wish we could be together all the time.but i don't want to ask you.i don't want to be rejected again.i know what people say about not worrying about rejections and such.but being rejected again and again wears me down.anyone with some dignity would be sick and tired to go through that kind of treatment like a evil circle.and if you haven't forgotten, i am also a girl.i have got some pride and dignity like everyone else too.i am willing to let them down but doesnt mean you could trample on it like it wouldnt hurt.and i always have to suffer from withdrawal symptoms or cold turkey after meeting you.and maybe spending time away from you will eventually starve my desire to be with you.but i am quite sure i will never be able to forget you.
i want you to be happy.with or without me.but i dunno how.
=(
the long awaited photos for THEIR Phuket trip are finally posted on her Friendster=)
though i know how much it will hurt to see them together, i still couldn't resist the temptation to find out.
aha.and well.how my heart wrenched into a pathetic lump when i see the photos.how the rims of my eyes burn when i see the photos.how i wish i never have to feel so miserable about someone i love so much.
and it is the much dreaded 24th of the month again.and maybe seeing these photos on this particularly special day is meant to be.but of course, i don't need these subtle hints to tell me i should have let go long time ago.his indifference and ability to move on so quickly are the best ways he can use to tell me to get a life of my own without him.but how?how could i possibly leave when i gave so much and is still so committed in this expired relationship?when i still care and love you so much, how can i turn around and pretend nothing between us have moved me?
my friends are expecting us to meet up before our leaving to China.and of course i miss you so much i wish we could be together all the time.but i don't want to ask you.i don't want to be rejected again.i know what people say about not worrying about rejections and such.but being rejected again and again wears me down.anyone with some dignity would be sick and tired to go through that kind of treatment like a evil circle.and if you haven't forgotten, i am also a girl.i have got some pride and dignity like everyone else too.i am willing to let them down but doesnt mean you could trample on it like it wouldnt hurt.and i always have to suffer from withdrawal symptoms or cold turkey after meeting you.and maybe spending time away from you will eventually starve my desire to be with you.but i am quite sure i will never be able to forget you.
i want you to be happy.with or without me.but i dunno how.
=(
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