wednesday was a special day.
as i was telling peipei..

ytd i was wid huiling in orchard zara
den hb saw us
N HE DIDNT EVEN COME SAY HI
at night he sms me.asked if i was there.den he told me he saw me lo.den i asked why he didnt come sae hi.den he started saying he only saw my back view n dress.den i sae isit cos he was wid her so he cldnt come sae hi.he said maybe ya.but continue insisting sae wad i was walking veh fast then i disappeared.then i siad he cld still coem sae hi.den he said most imptly is he look like fark so cnt say hi
tts like d best excuse i heard in my 19 years.then he started started saying forget it k.my fualt k.i sibei dulan lo.i said wow.u r makin it sounds like i am pickign a fight.then he said it's a misunderstandin n he is sorry la.
then i said.nvm la.nothing to be sorry about.(In a very sarcastic tone of cos)\so i guess he cld sense it.den he said sorry again.
i just said never mind.nth much also.just didnt noe saying hi could be so tough.

either he is so submissive to winnie.or she is such a control freak that he he cnt even say hi to a FRIEND.i can't help but to feel he is behaving like such a pussy with her.i never thought he is such a person.and i feel very upset, angry and super disappointed that he behaved like that.and it sorta gross me out too.

we were so close.being able to share everything together.thinking back, maybe it was only be who could share whatever with him.cos only much later i realised it wasn't so for his side.anyway, it really upsets me that we are so distant and becoming like strangers now.he promised he would always be there for me.but apparently he isnt really keeping his promise and there's nothing much i can do about that.but it still saddens me a lot to see us drifting apart like that.to think i am leaving so soon and he seem to couldnt care less.how great.

i still miss him.though i don't think i can forget about the incident at zara.and my leaving ought to be a good chance to let go.though i am so sure it is gonna hurt like mad.

i still love you, baby.