hello

he called las night.and it's been a while before that i could go to sleep with a lil smile on my face.
then i just had to check their friendsters and spoil my own day.
she posted a few new pictures of them and their frens.looking happily and lovingly together.photos i never thought he will want to be seen in kind.photos wid his fren meaning he has once again brought them together like how he brought me to his frens kind?they been to east coast.were they as happy as we were when we were at east coast park that night?okie, i wasnt happy all the way cos we quarrelled n i cried over winnie then.ha.how ironical.and i wonder how jianliang feels seeing them together.haha.
i sorta miss his frens too.like i've mentioned.
and another thing tts quite puzzling is that, when we were on the phone last night, he mentioned they quarrelled.and the weird thing is he referred her as "MY girlfriend", not winnie or whatsoever.and i wonder why.maybe he mentioned it this way purposely (to spite me or what, god knows),to show they are extra close, or the other extreme, to show they are nt tt close.or it just doesnt has any special meaning?

and oh ya.the photos.
alex dawn n i were discussing.
and they think she's doing this because she wants to spite me.
maybe showing off tt they are happily f each other?
maybe telling me that he's still hers ultimately？
maybe it's just a subtle way to get me to get lost?
if she's really doing this to spite me, i wld veh much like to ask her to get a life.seriously.1stly, he's already yours.what more are you worried for?2ndly, if you are using him to show off to me, i cnt imagine how hurt he might be when he gets to know about it.3rdly, dont u think it is just plain childish this way?and a caption from one of their photos reads like this, "he's a freakin lucky boy, i can say ;)"
okie lo.he must be god-damn lucky to have you then.wad i interpret from this line is that, she thinks she's really good for him.or maybe having such a forgiving girlfriend like her who can still take him back even after he cheated on her.good good.

we are all very confused with what we want.many times, we have what we thought we want to keep.other times, we want what others have.more often than not, we are not satisfied with what we already have.and i guess we are very much these people.

i still miss you.