hello

=(

been in quite a depressed mood this few days.maybe it's cos i am going china soon =\
but i guess it's most probably because of the idea of him really has left me.=(

i've been crying myself to sleep for the past few days, feeling empty and dejected without anyone i can really hold on to.

okie.great.he just told me he can't make it to zouk later.nabey.he was the one suggesting going clubbing today, then it's also him who cancelled it.okie la, it's cos u just got to know it's your fren's bd today.but this is not the first time when u suggested going somewhere then cancelled it.argh.u know how much this kinda thing pisses me off.cb.

and u r leaving for Phuket with her on d 16th next month.though it's only like a 4-5 day trip, i sure it's gonna be THEIR sweet escape to a sunny island with tall shady palm trees and clear blue seawater.how romantic.how fucked up.

and the trip you promised me.i am so sure it's long forgotten.jerk.
u asked if i will call you when i am in china.now, i don't even know if you'll still rmb me when i'm away.

you make me wonder.if i still have a place in you.if i am still as special to u as u r to me.

why am i still so concerned abt someone who makes me feel so worthless?wtf.