i had a weird dream last night.
i dreamt that we were sleeping together.and in the dream, we were back together and i knew it's a dream and i was hoping against hope to wake up from it.=(

like a dream in a dream.and in both dreams, i don't want to wake up.it's still very difficult to pull myself away from the fantasy.i know it's just an illusion.illusion that should never be there.i shouldn't even be thinking about him, in fact.feeling so miserable and bitter about everything and losing the ability to be happy about anything sincerely.

you sae friday prolly go zouk tog.i have this feeling we are gonna get very high n drunk, like before and things might get out of control-_-
if it is gonna be like tt time, don't put d blame on me ok.it takes two hands to clap.
actually not that i don't want.i just don't want to feel so dejected and abandoned after making out with you.i think wait till i can really see us just as fuck buddies then.