and i think i have grown stronger and wiser.finally.

it just suddenly hit me that i am being v silly all these while.holding on to something that hasnt been there for a damn long time.feeding on the false hope he's been giving me.

true, this is not the first time i feel determined to let go of the wretched relationship.and apparently I've failed miserably more than i could take it myself.but this time it seems different.i can't wait to get rid of the box i have with me now, something which he promised would be with him months ago.but i don think i want to hand it to you personally already.seems like the photos and your lies have done a great job in turning me off towards you.hur hur.

and the courage i took to empty my inbox.just in case you dunno, my inbox were filled with your messages.i used to treasure alot.those words you told me.esp those with such endearment.but i was so pissed off with all the lies you have been telling me from day one and i guess it was that anger that motivated me to take the first steps of letting go, removing all the electronic-based memories i had in my phone.for a split second i was filled with regret.but i told myself no, i can't fall back into it so soon, at least.and i am getting more sure that i can do so much better without you.even thought the fact that we can never be as close, physically or emotionally, still aint the best idea.