we quarrelled.n it's d worst of all.we talked a lot..i was veh tenperamental and attitude.at least tts wad he said.he was veh angry and shouting at me.he even said that he tot of leavin me though it's cos he loves me and dun wan me to suffer cos of him.im veh scared and upset.

okie.tts wad i sms jan.i dun wan 2 b tinkin ok wad happened again.it is stil painful.

i felt he didnt care and he wad angry that i tink he doesnt care.

i was really veh scared and upset, although i was rather angry and tink i dun deserve to b treated the way he was treating me.no 1 shouted at me like he did before.=(
but he did apologised for shouting at me, for being so harsh to me, for scaring me.
i dun like that.

he asked y i m becoming like that.he asked if tis is d real me.wen he asked those questions, i felt really hurt cos it was like he was doubting me even though he denied doing so.he even said i was selfish for doing all those to him, saying he dun care n tings lidat.

i guess i ve been too selfish n inconsiderate towards him then.i noe it is nt ez for him but neither isit ez for me.but prolly i nv really feel how difficult isit for him really.although deep inside i tink i dun quite deserve al tis shit, but cos i love him (n might have been showing it the wrong way) i dun wan to let go.i prayed for strength n wisdom to pull thru tis.n his presence with me thru out everytin wil b vital.god, i pray tt everytin wil b over real soon.i m exhuasted.but i will make it =)

but d ting tt affects me most.okie.mayb nt so kua zhang.is tt he tot of leaving me.even though it's cos he loves me n dun wan me to suffer cos of him.but i m stil angry tt he even tot of tt.baby.u noe goin seperate ways is really the last ting i have in mind no matter what happens.pls dun even tink abt it anymore.

i promised him i wunt ask anytin abt him n her already.i sorta regret now.cos of cos i wan to know right?!n i tink i haf d rights too.but since we always quarrel cos of tis, den i rather not take d risk.though i can foresee myself burstin.hahaha.either into questions or tears.we'll see.=)

KKK.put al the bad tings behind us okie?cos we dont have eyes on our backs. =)

i love you baby.though i said tis b4 today, i relaly hope tis is d last time we wil b quarrelling over tis.

KKK.tmr zouk-ing!yeah!it is been veh long i really club hard.as in really hard like i did.wa lau.d good ol' days.hahaha.n tmr is wid jan VIG N JEEKENG leh!wa lau.dunno since wen sae wan tog until tmr finally sia!so tmr if either of us cnt make it i wil b veh sad =( n i haf enuf sadness to last a lifetime so i dun nid anymore.hahhaha.so excited!=D

kns.he gt d boys' diesease.gt video games dun wan girlfriend.f.

=D