HI DE

omg.it is been 1 mth plus since i last blogged?!wtf.i m sorry i neglected u =(

1st n foremost!happy belated zhihua!u r 19!
=D

n 2ndly.i ve got a dear baby now.since 24/2/07.omg.tis i say until so tweet.wtf.
ANYWAY.ya.=)

okie.i knew marcus(or rather hanbin since he's more used to that.or rather baby since i m more use dto tt)at zouk.okie!tis might nt b a veh gd place 2 noe ur boyfriend at.but tt din cross my mind la.and d other "break-norm" ting is tt he is stil wid his girlfriend.-_-

okie.i tink by now ppl r oredi screamin 2 me,tellin me 2 wake up n stop being such a stupid slut.but he told me it is veh difficult for d both of dem now.n he is goin 2 leave her.soon.okie."zhihua!how can u jus trust al he says jus lidat!?"okie.d ting is,i dun wan to dun trust him.see?i guess tis is wad u call love.=)

actuali.we were already veh intimate b4 we gt tog.u noe la.in clubs.we were oredi huggin n kissin on d 1st day we met.but of cos.d reason behind we do such love stuff now is veh diff from y we did it then.n i wan to belive he is the right one for me to love and trust.

i mean.after t *(&^%$&Y() jiaming ting,i sorta lose hope in believin some1 quite a bit.after tt i seriously went clubbin wid a veh cautious heart.i clubbed jus for d fun the booze n dancin bring.so i wen i first met baby, i was stil quite denfensive.i tot plain flirt wunt hurt.but son b4 i knew it, i started havin feelins for him.mayb it is jus in my character tt i fall in love easily.but i tink mostly it is cos he is really some1 different.i knew him on wed.i followed him to his fren's party at mos d followin fri.n d situation then, he cld haf taken advantage of me.which he didnt.which cosed me 2 b veh touched.nt literally.hahaha.

for now, we r tog, whenever he tells me he is wid winnie (his girlfren,anw), my heart wrenches into a painful manner.sth i nv felt 4 a veh long time.n it totally suck.i swear.imagine havin 2 share ur baby wid anuder girl.okie.mayb i shudnt even have existed in d 1st place.but since we chose 2 b tog, i strongly firmly believe tt he has 2 make a choice.real soon.cos stayin lidat wl never be fair for any of us.though i dun wan 2 sound selfish n demandin, i stil wan him 2 leave her.though it might b a little diffcult for d both of dem, considering dey ve been tog for quite some time..2 yrs plus..but since he no longer feel d love he had for her b4, y cant he b a little more decisive? =(

we went thru so much n mayb i shud say we are stil goin thru so much to be and stay tog.pls make tis work as i dun tink either of us can take another blow lidat=S

baby i love you =) and i know you too=)