baby is at work.

man.how i miss him.i dun wan to sound veh clingy wadsoeva.but i sometimes really gt tis veh strong desire to b with him like ALL THE TIME.i noe he wil gt sick of me real soon like that n tts d end.rubbish leh me.

i am tinkin.i dun wan 2 b d 1 wanting to leave this relationship.cos i wil look like a f hypocrite then, considering all the things i say now.but if he is d 1 wantin to go 1st, i tink i wil b devastated.really.i cnt imagine.tt day he suddenly ask if we wil break up.i dun wan to say never cos i noe nth is for sure but i dun wan to tink tt we will one day go seperate ways.ahh!i hate it wen he askes things lidat.it is like preparing me for tt day.i dun wan =(

like.b4 we r tog, i owas tot tt forever is sth stupid n unattainable.okie.nt saying i can see forever now( in any relationships i share with anybody, nt only with him), but at least i hope things can stay like this for a good long time.i m nt like before, alwas lookin for changes and novelty.like, i wil wan to stay wid him for as long as we can =)

n oh ya.tan told me kw stil kips d break up letter i gave him in his wallet.till now.my gwad la.like i cnt even rmb wad i wrote.i feel veh bad.mayb i ve reali hurt him veh bad.f.i m sorry =(

n oh ya ya!tan is wid jiaming oredi.i told baby.he said veh shockin meh?
yaya.true.it is nt veh shockin, considering dey had been DATING piror to being together 'offcially'.but it is to me stil veh shocking.like it is jus diff dey r tog n jus dating.i feel weird.n i cant imagine nex time we go out tog.as d whole grp.but then again.i guess it prolly wunt happen.considering how much we dun like him.i tink i might even jus walk away.my gwad.eeks.

n flea was tokin to abt him.n askin me questions tt almos or mayb even a bit shook my love for him.n i feel veh bad for tt.i shudnt.so pls baby.tell me al d shit is gone soon.d only ting lackin is ur assurance in tt part.=(

i miss you so.