HI

end of d week again.las fri,he wld b tellin me his family stuff.askin me out.
las sat.he wld b tellin me hw much he feels for me still.how much he wants me.
las sunday.wen things start screwing up.
las monday to thurs.still feelin quite screwed.started to feel better on thurs though.even though i stil cnt tink of it widout feelin screwed.i m so screwed.

wtf.n my jacket stil smells of him.d perfume/tabacco smell.his smell.i gt dis urge NOT to wash my jacket.which is veh disgusting/stupid of me.so i m gonna put it into d laundry basket later.wash it.let it smell of me.let it go.let it start again.

n wtf.i dreamt of him tt dae.though i cnt rmb wads it exactly.but it was sth nice.as in in d dream,we were happily tog la.BUT IT IS JUS A F DREAM.n ppl sae if u can rmb ur dreams,it wunt happen.so i guess it is sth 2 b happy abt.in some way.

n mayb it is gd he is so f up 2 me now.let it hurt al d wae.so i can turn into a phoneix from d ashes.veh harry potter inspired =D like..
把爱放开 把手放开 如果你的心已不在
把爱放开 不再等待 你的温柔是一片空白
把爱放开 把心打开 这次我决定走出所有回忆重来
就让我彻底的伤 再彻底的醒过来

F.i wan 2 club.now.pray tan can make it for zoukout.i can us havin loadsa fun =)
or mayb i jus nid some1 to 4gt him.thoroughly.

oh ya.ziheng is irritating.argh.