and you start wondering if life is a farking joke that is on loop.

i don't understand why you are so indecisive.i am now your bloody girlfriend.you told me before you've put your past behind you.you told me we could last together for a good period of time.now that your bloody ex girlfriend realizes that after all these while she is still in love with you, you are so affected.you even said you dunno how you feel for anyone anymore.yes, that includes me.the one you've said you love and will do so. so for the past few weeks, you were just weaving this beautiful lie.and me, being the stupidest person around actually believed that you meant what you said and sticked around.ha.

i have said i want to go through this with you but it seems to get quite difficult when you are still so indecisive and wishy-washy.what's wrong?i don't want to sound impatient or bias whatsoever.you think by dragging this and smoking your life away will bring the problem to a solution? you think she won't do this to you again when she once did it and hurt you so badly? well, maybe i am not anyone to judge her since i never even met her before.but i never believe that a leopard can changes it spots.when one can do something, it becomes habitual and high chance it will re-occur in that person's actions.

i hope we can pull through this TOGETHER and probably stay together happily.