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we were on the phone last night.and even though i tried very hard to keep my cool (i did, anyway.)but i dunno wad happened to him, he was very harsh (though he claimed he never did) and just cannot xin ping qi he.u know.and he said i was still like before and was just speaking nonsense-_-

despite him being like that, i could still talk to him PROPERLY and without crying.yes.

so we went to sleep with a not-so-nice mood, eventually.and god.how reluctant i was to hang up cos it seemed like it wld b the end of EVERYTHING u see.

so in d morning i sms him:
Morning=) hmmm.i've been thinking.i'm such a weakling in this whole thing n tt screwed up everything.but i'll be stronger through all these.i'm not gonna lose you as a good friend right?=)

and he replied:
Hmm you are not a weakling...Anyway morning.. Ya u wont lose me as a friend

then i said:
Ya.i'm not.i was.haha=) That's really comforting to know yea.haha.

then he said:
I really mean what i say and am sorry.. Hope you forgive me

then i said:
Omg.dont say that=) i should be theone saying sorry for screwing things up.u r right abt me being nonsensical.i'm so spoilt tt i often wan things my way n i didnt even notice that before.u r a special fren i wont' exchange for anything yea=)

then his reply:
Hmm u are someone special too..

=)))))))))))))))
hmm.i think.no.i mean.this time it's really letting go.he really seems happier when we are just good friends.and it makes me happy seeing him like that.and isnt that the whole point?=)
we are already so sick from quarreling about such dumb things.and i feel very relieved when i let him free.like sth really boggling me off my mind.and we know we'll always be there for each other.just 'cos we are someone special to each other.=)

but i'm sorry we had to go through so much just to arrive at this 'cos of me.pardon me my baby.

you are someone so special and important.and i love you.