this came to my mind while i was on the way to lunch just now

it is so cold outside on this beautiful night
so why don't you stay in bed with me,
and we'll make love the way you like?

hahah.i dunno why.

oh.i just copy all his sms into this folder in my laptop.and named it, yes, sms.=D
lame.
i just want to clear up my phone a bit.and when i saw the sms he sent me when we just gotta know each other or even when we just got together, i can't help to notice how different is he now.he's more light-hearted, loving or even a little flirty previously.but after we got together for some time, we started to quarrel and saying sorry to each other, when they could simply and sweetly replaced with sweet whispers and love words.

i just realised it's just might be because I'm over-sensitive and he's not sensitive enough at times.and i won't say it is another of our fault.although i won't say it is my fault (largely, at least) 'cos i was like that 'cos i was very unsecured and care(d) a lot about the both us.and maybe since i was just a fall-back plan he can depend on when plan A don't feel like giving a shit, he didn't have to mind me a lot.or he could just do without me anytime.
how great.

eh.this is like the 1st resentful entry about us after the break-up.bitch.
i dunno how will he fell if he ever gets to read this blog.haha.

when i was reading those old sms, i couldn't even remember he said all those things.maybe we are too clouded with all those negative energy between us.but i also can't seem to remember a lot of the reasons we quarrelled for.such contradictory.

i think the card will be the last chance between us.not that i want to give up but it seems that he is not reciprocating to the effort I'm putting in.it seems like he still haven't make up his mind who he wants.it seems that he is not very wanting us to come back together.it seems that he can still do without me.
okie.i know i am saying all these might just be very well 'cos I'm still upset about us not together and his "seeming-ly f care" attitude."seeming-ly f care" means that i may be thinking too much.again.