he is still very sick=(

we were suppose to go out today.or maybe come my house swim or sth.but he's too sick to even go out la.poor baby=(

i was out when he called me yesterday.when i took out the phone, it was a missed call already-_-
called back and we talked for quite a while.he said he didn't reply my sms cos he was out with his mum.haha.but i just this feeling he was with winnie (and maybe his mum also).cos he sounded a bit unsure and "kou chi" when he told me that.haha.i know it is just perfectly normal they are out together since they are together.but it still hurts me.maybe cos i still feel i am part of him and he's a part of me so i still cannot get used to the idea he is going out with someone else=(

nah.i should be getting used to that.somemore that is only what i think.and it might be becasue i always think so much that he couldn't stand being with me so i must change that as much as possible.haha.he asked about my eyes.and he said..see la.ask u go see doctor earlier don't want.kinda stuff.i feel that he still truly and strongly cares for me.the way he said and how he sounded.then we sms-ed.i said i miss him.i told him i miss him and asked if he's avoiding me.he say he's not avoiding me and why should he.and i dunno why he apologised.then i asked is it he rather me not say that.he said no and the sorry doesn't point to that.=S
i really dunno.you sound like you still care but it seems very distant and unsure.i said i miss you.but either you don't feel it or you just don't want to say, you didn't tell me so.but i don't blame you =\ i am sure you have your own reasons la=)

ong just edited this photo of ours.remember the one we took in the bus with the Indian guy behind?=D

i like this photo a lot=)









gee.i guess i should just wait for you to ask me out.and no, i am not playing hard to get. i just don't want you to think i am irritating and stuff like that.cos that's the worst that can happen now when i already don't have you.so don't forget k =)

and please get well soon.i feel very helpless to see you suffering.i am not like anyone who can do something/ everything for you already so when i can't do anything, i feel very useless not being able to do anything for you.faster get well then we can go swim like we planned =D

gee.we are only 2 days away from our 3rd month anniversary.even if we are still together, we won't be able to spend it together cos you'll be on duty.haha.hmmm.but i rather not be able to spend it together than to not being able to spend it at all.i was out with Daphne that day then i remembered art friend sells those cards for Love and one of it talks about troubled relationship.i got one and i think i will give to you =\

this is what is on the card:
I hate it when we fight, because i know deep in my heart how much we care for one another. It's silly, when you think about it, that two people who love each other should have such a hard time getting back on the right track. I want so much for us to listen openly to each other and focus on what brought us together in the first place...to get past the hurt and tears to the hugs and kisses...beyond misunderstandings to forgiveness. I'm more than willing to try, and I hope you are, too...because when things are right between us, life couldn't be better. And i can't wait till we're back enjoying each other again.

and this is what i will write in the card:
(okie.i dunno yet.think i will write it out 1st la.=D)