u r makin me feel IRKED

he told me
"... i mean.some part of me doesnt exactly want to let you go but i guess thats the best way out"
den i said..if i tel i dun liek u at al nw,i wil b lying but i dun wan us 2 continue lidat u noe.
den he started rattering abt him nt ready for a relationship..i wil find sum1 betta..he's 2 wild 4 him..den i said diff ppl gt diff definition of being wild hahah.n he stil tinks i like him 4 his looks.well,tts undeniable but it is certainly nt all la.n i told him tt b4.wtf.
den i told him i wunt expect my relationship wid a guy 2 b super long n steady.den he said tts our diff whereby i jus wan mere companionship n if he supposedly steps into a relationship he wil wan it to last or at least try 2 attain tt.den i was tinkin la.tts quite contradicting to wad he said.as inl.him being a player n too wild 4 me.but i jus kept tt part 2 myself.he doenst hafta explain 2 me 2 much.

hai.i dunno y he had 2 tel me al tis.dawn n hl tink tt cos i m nt like feelin upset n "beggin" him 2 take me back,it is like veh unexpected n he mite b accept tis.mayb he wans me 2 crawl back 2 him.but of cos i wunt stoop so low.but if he is reali sincere n dun haf any other agenda (read:sex),mayb we can try it out la.MAYBE.anw it mite b 2 early 2 sae anitin nw.

if he reali doesnt wan me 2 go, y did he tel me al d tings he said?
if he reali doesnt wan me 2 go, y did he let go?
if he reali doesnt wan me 2 go, y cant i stay?