am i reading into ppl's words too much?
i tend t get really bothered with what kinda words ppl use when they talk to me, be it online or face t face.and the misunderstandings can get really bad esp if i am talking to them online.sms too.

this can be quite bothering and strenuous to a relationship of any kind. be it a friendship or a bond you share with your lover, it can be really unhealthy for the relationship when one of you starts to get suspicious and paranoid about what might be behind what the other party is saying.more often than not, it just has its face-off meaning but one just can't help to think else way.

maybe it just that i miss my baby too much.i start to wonder if he really really loves me as for me.to me, i still can't quite believe someone can really love me and only me for the way i am.and i guess my insecurity can be quite unfair to him, as me feeling this way can get into him at times.i know i shouldnt not trust him about how much he loves me.i am sure he does love me as much as he does but it is sometimes really beyond me to really believe sth so amazing have happened to me.=/

and i love you so.you are the one who shows that someone on this planet can really love me exclusively.the real me since i am so comfortable with you i don't have to pretend t be someone else or be worried i might look like a fool in front of you.you are someone i can see walking down the path of life for a god-damn long time.you will be there holding my hand and me falling asleep in your gentle embrace with a peaceful smile on my face.someone to share all my woes and joyous moments with.telling each other the sweetest dreams and scariest nightmares.trust each other with the deepest secrets we never told anyone else.seeing the same future with each other involved in it.travelling to places we saw on TV.me preparing meals for you and you doing the dishes (haha).partying the night away with our friends.just lying on the bed watching silly TV shows and music videos.quarrelling over senseless things and making up when you pull me into your arms and tell each other how sorry we are for losing our (okie, mostly it is me) tempers. being the first to greet each other good morning and last to kiss each other good night.and we will be making love endlessly=)

thank you baby.i know it hasnt been easy for you all these while, esp when i am throwing those dumb tantrums for no apparent reason.there are days when even the slightest hiccup can piss off into a big fist.but you would just be angry only for a short while and silently wait for me to cool off.i know i can always lean on you after a hectic day outside with horrible people i meet and no matter how heavy i am (pun intended).=D

so, i wanna thank you again, the man of my life.for bringing so many wonderful moments, so much love, endless hugs and kisses into my world.most importantly, yourself, who is the source of everything i wanna hold on to for the longest time i can imagine.and you never have to doubt that i love you.